I haven’t posted for a long while. It’s been such a difficult time and it’s been hard to know what to post. I want to be honest and open in these blogs but my focus is on sharing my experience of the project rather than the personal details of my life. The Proverbs 31 project continues on a daily basis, but in recent months I have felt more and more detached from the woman I am aspiring to be.
In my last post, I mentioned the importance of God being the source of our strength. I thought I had come so far in this area. My people pleasing has significantly decreased and the experiences of this year have brought me into a closer relationship with God but there is still something missing. Despite how hard it is at times, I am grateful for the work God is doing in my heart. I have always felt so dependent on the approval and love of others and to know that he is moving we towards freedom from that fills me with hope…but it’s not easy.
As part of the process, God prompted me to return to a DVD and study guide set that have been sat on my shelf for a long while now. Lysa TerKeurst’s “Uninvited” study series explores themes of rejection and the way in which the hurt others have caused can shape our lives. So from now up to Christmas, I’ll be working my way through the six sessions and sharing what I’m discovering as part of the Proverbs 31 project.
“Live from a deep assurance that you are fully loved and you won’t find yourself begging others for scraps of love. Live loved.”
I know that I am deeply loved by God, but does the way I live reflect that? Over the next six weeks, I pray that God will continue to work in this area of my heart and will share with you anything new that God reveals to me.